Am i unwanted or something?

I'm feeling too darn insecure.

I need hugs.

I need kisses.

I need company.

I need alex around.

But...

Why the fuck do i always cry when no one is with me?

Why do we always quarrel just because i didn't pick up your calls or reply your messages the moment i received them coz i'm preoccupied by something and didn't hear my phone ring?
I always return your calls and messages be it by phone calls or messages.
I explained the reasons to you and you just won't listen or even believe.
Simply put you don't even trust me.
I didn't even do or say anything when you don't pick my calls or reply my messages.
Does that make me good to bully?
Do i deserve this kind of treatment just because i'm a useless bum at housework and that i'm abit allergic to water so i really don'l like bathing much coz it gives me rashes?
When it comes to work, you say i'm not looking out for one. But the blardy thing is i don't have internet access *i have been posting via mms from my phone*, how am i gonna look for work?
And still, Why the fuck do i cry when i miss you so much?